What's in the heart? A full understanding of things can be slow and puzzling at times and when you put things together, the whole picture emerges. Years swept away and gone. It is amazing. I still hold on to the belief that there is something out there for me. Despite of all these events in life. I am seriously reflecting what all these means to me and I Cannot come up with an answer but to think that things happen. Unhealthful happens and that the body sometimes goes through just so much it breaks down at some point. Maybe it was a way for me to cope. But then again, the body's way of recuperating and healing is also amazing. Maybe I have to experience it first hand  what's like to be good at it. I still believe in the body's power of healing, I am keeping a positive mind in the great hopes that my body will follow. I cannot still believe what is happening to me. Never thought I would have health problems this way. I was never seriously sick. There were mild headaches and pains here and there. But when I got this, I had everything.And it affected all aspects of my body mental, emotional and the physical. Sometimes my mind plays tricks on me. Let me tell you, I woke up this morning because of heartburn. Then I went back to bed and had this bad dream of snakes crawling in through the window, snakes on the bed and some bugs crawling and bounding my ankles. It felt so real, I was feeling it even after I woke up. Creepy images. I am still hoping for a good day. Ain't the end of the world. Not yet.

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